Sunday, March 18, 2012
My husband and I have been married for 10 years.(2/23) WOW! I NEVER in a million years thought I would be with someone that long. I remember growing up and thinking, I would never get married. I hated marriage, mainly because I watched the ones around me never work. Women were always the leaders, dominating the relationships, the men were passive, cheaters who never stuck around. What I look like getting involved in such pain and turmoil?? God did an amazing work in my heart! He also blessed me with an godly, passionate, affectionate servant of a husband! I really am blessed!
What I thought was ugly, (marriage) is now the most beautiful, joyous, often challenging thing I have ever had to deal with. I want to be the best wife in the world!! I really do, sometimes so much so that I search blogs, read books and compair myself to every wife that I see or read about. Which in the end is leaving me depressed,sleepless and full of fear. I will admit, I need to PRAY MORE.
I'm asking the Lord for His forgiveness tonight in not being confident in who He has called Nicole to be as a helper to her husband. I was just sharing with some friends tonight that this is still at times my struggle. I think reading books & blogs can be such a huge encouragement but not when it's taken to the level I tend to take it at times. I want the Lord to use such arenas to convict and encourage me. I want them to lead to a godly sorrow that leads to repentance in any area I need to repent in.
God is so good and merciful to me, so patient in the areas I fail from day to day as a wife. I want my husband to be blessed because of my devotion to the Lord and love for Him. I want my child to see me walking daily in repentance and humility. I want her to one day say, "I believe in Adoni, I know Emmanuel is here, because I saw Him in the life of my mother."
Please pray for me. Pray that I would exemplify Gods love to my family. Pray that I would have a healthy view of the gospel during those times I fall short. Most importantly, pray that I have a strong devotion to the Lord and not allow the enemy of "comparison" rob me of my joy.
May God's grace abound to us all as we strive to be the godly women He has called us to be!
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Canopy is the newest (well, not so new) addition to the CGM family. Its the name our our mentor program! The mission of Canopy is to plant ourselves in the life of a student, providing encouragement and spiritual nourishment, in hope of producing a mentor leader who will do the same for the next generation. As a Canopy we desire (as mentors) to cover and protect those under our influence as we grow together ( as a collective body of believers).
I have the privilege of mentoring a young girl whom I've known for a couple of years now. She is a freshman in high school, very outgoing, VERY intelligent, and I love her to death. :) Due to difficult circumstances, she even lived with us for a couple of months, which I will say was very challenging, and hard; yet we did enjoy it at times and now miss her as she is back with family.
I have the joy of walking through life this growing young woman until her high school graduation. I've had the AWESOME privilege of leading her to the Lord a couple of weeks ago, and God has also set it up where she is even in my CGM discipleship group. This sweet child is up against so much, so many negative influences, so much evil. Yet, she has high expectations of herself, she wants to go to college, she wants to get married, she wants to go to law school and become a lawyer.
Below "K" as Rosa Parks at school. I had so much fun dressing her. (lol)
She wants to be different then those around her, she wants to make different choices, live for the Lord and have a good life. I believe she can do all those things with the Lord's blessing. I see Him working and wooing her in so many ways even at the age of 14. God is amazing! God is growing me in humility, compassion and humility (lol) in this relationship with her. I am having to die to myself more as I seek to serve this teen and point her to the one who will come soon for His bride.
My prayer is that she will fall deeply in love with the Savior through the relationship she has with my family. We adore her, and we are the ones that are blessed to be a part of her life. Please continue to pray for us as we minister to her and pray for this sweet new baby Christian.