He executes justice for the oppressed and gives food to the hungry. The LORD sets prisoners free, the LORD gives sight to the blind, he lifts up those who are bowed down, the LORD loves those who live justly. The LORD watches over the immigrant and sustains the fatherless and the widow, but he frustrates the ways of the wicked. -Psalm 146:7-9

Friday, August 23, 2013

Under Construction

I remember the first day we moved into inner city Washington Park and into our new house. We were so anxious and didn't want to wait any longer on the renovations that were taking place. We moved into a home that wasn't completed. I remember the saw dust, tools from workers laying around, unpainted walls, unfinished decks, holes that needed to be covered, ect. 

I didn't care. As a woman, you know that's huge not to care. We don't play about our homes. Ha!
 I sat at home today wondering what was different now. You see, now I care. Every ounce  of living in an unfinshed home bothers me. Why didn't I care back then?! What was the perspective I held to that made things so different? Whatever it is.. I needed it back!! 

After a very emotional morning, I ran to the feet of Jesus and begin to be reminded of the lesson that stood right before me of my broken "house." 

As we all know, the brokenness  of the inner city is a perfect reminder of the world we live in. Sin has left us in a jacked up position. We can't help but see this everywhere in the inner city. In addition, we can also see it clearly in our own bodies.

My "house", you see, is a picture of the very body  I live in on a daily basis. I'm broken, in need of much restoration just like my community. Every day I look around my unfinished home , I'm reminded of my need for Jesus, my community need of Jesus and right now I'm being reminded of His promise that things won't stay this way in my body or in my community. 

So, in the beginning, it wasn't as hard moving into a home that wasn't restored fully. The struggle became real as I had to live in the home DURING the restoration process. There are days I just want to quit, or pretend its not even a big deal, or even allow my mind to wonder off and daydream about what it would be like to live in a "home" where restoration wasn't a need. It's called escape people, and sometimes I could be good at it. Sanctification is a beast! 

I stopped  living with Hope and a heart focused on the promises of God. I've gotten comfortable and tired here. As I heard one pastor say, "God cares, and He calls you to care. He is not satisfied with the state of this "house" and He calls us to share in His Holy dissatisfaction. He wants us, everyday that we live to embrace the gospel promise of a world made new. There is Hope for new beginnings and fresh starts"

I must not let my own brokenness  or the brokenness of my hood paralyze me with discouragement. I gotta stay focused!!  I must be aware of the brokeness and learn how to think wisely, live productively, wait patiently on The Lord  and learn how to be an agent of restoration. 

I'm slowly again  learning how to be thankful for this old broken" house". Pray with me and for me. 

(Pastor quoted: Paul David Tripp)

Monday, August 19, 2013

Message Monday- Self-DESTRUCTION

The Stop the Violence Movement was begun by rapper KRS-One in 1989 in response to violence in the hip hop and African American communities.

In 1988, during a concert by Boogie Down Productions andPublic Enemy, a young fan was killed in a fight. The killing occurred shortly after Scott La Rock, a founding member of Boogie Down Productions, was killed in a shooting. KRS-One responded to these deaths by forming the Stop the Violence Movement to advance a vision of hip hop that would restore what he called hip hop's "original principles" to the music industry. Composed of some of the biggest stars in contemporary East Coast hip hop, the movement released a single, "Self Destruction", in 1989, with all proceeds going to the National Urban League. A music video was created, and a VHS cassette entitled "Overcoming Self-Destruction - The Making of the Self-Destruction" Video was also released.  (source :Wikipedia)

After another homicide happen in our area, I'm convinced this message is still needed today in 2013.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Checking My Gauge Pt 1

“We don't forget that we are Christians. We forget that we are human, and that one oversight alone can debilitate the potential of our future.” Wayne Cordeiro, Leading on Empty: Refilling Your Tank and Renewing Your Passion

My husband and I, just began reading a book together that a wise brother in the Lord recommended and I'M loving it!  I can't begin to explain the amount of fear and self examination this book is bringing up. This upcoming January our family will enter into our 7 yr mark as full time Urban Missionaries. I've never in my life been on a job this long-LOL!!

I'm about to be real honest for a minute. Ya girl is tired. PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY..yea tired.  I think as ministers we forget how important it is to take a break. To step back, breathe, remove yourself from all the chaos, disunity,and  day to day toils. IT'S VERY scary and sad that sometimes as missionaries and ministers we wait till its too late to take a time out from the callings over us. Too late meaning we wait till something effect our kids, our spouse, our marriages, or our physical health.
We have to stop doing this and remember GOD IS GOD, WE ARE NOT.

Our bodies need rest, we need development, our families are important, our service to Jesus is very important and the communities we serve need to see us do a better job with taking Sabbaths. I'm not implying anything in this post other than this: GOD IS Sovereign and why this book ended up in our hands in the timing it did is apart of a master plan.

Excuse me as I sit back and watch this unfold.


And he said to them, “Come away by yourselves to a desolate place and rest a while.” For many were coming and going, and they had no leisure even to eat.-Mark 6:31

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”--Matthew 11:28-29

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Lighthouse Christian Academy

We're homeschooling again!!!! Amazingly, I'm more excited about returning to homeschool now then  I've ever been. I feel real free, I'm more confident and I'm not trying to keep up with the Joneses. 
Gods sovereignty has my husband and I in awe. Homeschooling could not have come at a better timing for our family. This is going to be an exciting year, despite my one arm drama. I once read a friend tweet," a set back is set up for a come back".

Yea, I like that. 

Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them. Psalms 139:16 

Friday, August 9, 2013


It's crazy. I've  left blogger twice and everytime I leave I feel this tugging and pulling that I can't explain. It's kinda like that feeling  you get when you see your neighbor fighting through injustice that you know you can't turn your back on. Or maybe even like the house of kids left alone for hours with no food, running water or adult supervision. You refuse to turn a blind eye and say "that battle has nothing to do with me", yet, it has EVERYTHING to do with you as a follower and disciple of Jesus. 

 Your drawn because you know it's a picture of the kingdom of God when Gods people speak on behalf of those who cant speak for themselves. I have so much to say, so much to share about when it comes to  this amazing Savior and God who shows up in my life at the most crazy, but oh so, perfect times. 

I'm coming back. I'm returning to something that's clearly a love for me , writing and testifying about the work of God in the inner city. I broke my wrist on my right arm and I can't write with my right hand and won't be able to for the next year or so. I'm thankful my left fingers still move and I'll be able to  journal a little here about all the things I'm seeing and learning during this time. 

So, here I am friends, entering back into the wonderful world of blogging. 
Hope you stay around for some real, honest, and uncomfortable  conversation.